Felt like I couldn’t do it today

It’s hard work being a mom to a newborn. Not sleeping longer than 3 hrs at a time and sometimes not even that much. This week it has felt like he is up every 1-2 hrs at night and then will be up all morning when I think he must be so tired and wonder why he won’t sleep. My shoulder and back hurt so badly from bouncing/swaying him all night and day. The lack of sleep is making me angry when he won’t sleep. My body won’t let me nap when he finally naps during the day. I’m scared to ask for help even from my family because covid has given me such horrible anxiety. This is my husbands first week back at work so he’s been sleeping in our spare bedroom so he’s not exhausted for work everyday. I’m just defeated today 😞