7dpo today and down 💔

Today has been hard . I’m balling my eyes out . Watching people take test and getting positives . It was a happy and comfy place for me but today it was a trigger . This is my story

I’m 24, I’m in a lesbian relationship . I’m only open to AI which makes things harder (even though some people get positives the first try. I haven’t tried for longer than 4 consecutive months (trying on and off for roughly 2 years and switch my donor once) (by that time I’m consumed with the thought that I may never be a mother).

I suffer from major depressive disorder and ADD. And I’m starting to feel like the emotions and worry is causing me to fail .

People with depression . Before you found out you were pregnant did you have a spell .?

Any podcast/books/ANYTHING ANYONE would suggest . I feel so selfish because it’s people that have tried for so long but it’s about me and how I’m feeling .