Just need some support..😢

Hi ladies. I have posted this in other groups so I hope no one gets annoyed. I was a frantic mess yesterday when I posted so if you did see it forgive the craziness please! I didn't have a great anatomy scan. It showed an enlarged cisterna magna. I believe normal is 2 to 8mm and his was 10.1mm. Every thing else in the scan was 100% normal. All I can find on the internet is medical reports and I don't understand them. I have bloodwork going and waiting on an appointment with a specialist, but I can't stand this waiting. One of the possibilities is Trisomy 18 wich is my biggest fear. Or they said it could be nothing. I'm just so scared. Any advice on how to pass the time in a positive way. I haven't stopped crying or gotten out of bed since yesterday. Any success stories? I just felt like I needed to vent on here again. This is heartbreaking and I feel so lost. 😢 I need my baby boy to be ok. I fought to have him for 6 years. I need him to be ok.