...assistance pleasee

This is going to be me venting. I don’t think i’ve ever been this sad ever in my life and i am aware that i’m struggling with my mental health. I literally have no friends and do nothing on the weekends. I’ve been feeling really irritable lately and have been let down quite a lot this week. Nobody in my life has asked me how i’m doing in a long time. I feel a certain power knowing that nobody knows how i truly am feeling. what could this mean?..