First pregnancy ends miscarriage

It's over 😓 I lost my baby tonight. I've been passing clots and tissue with so much blood. It kills me every time I go to the bathroom and see it. I didn't think this would be this hard, I'm devastated 💔 I feel even worse that my man doesn't feel he can grieve with me. He's so focused on staying strong and being there for me he has totally pushed his feelings aside. I know he's just as hurt as me, but he'll never let me see it 😞 he cleaned up all my blood and ran the shower for me. He's wonderful. I feel bad for all the dads that have to go through this wit us, they are heros ❤ I have an excellent support system and for that I am grateful. I am hopeful for what the future may bring and for now I'm just trying to stay positive. If you've read this far, thanks. I'm not looking for anything other than a place to vent. I appreciate anything you may have to share