Have you even gotten extremely close to divorce

But then resolved issues, and ended up having a good marriage? We are so close to divorce, that i even have the name of the lawyer, I’ve told my family that I am seriously thinking of separating from my husband, I’ve even mentioned the idea to my husband. He refuses to change a lot of aspects of his life or to compromise, and I know he would refuse to go to counselling. My family thinks I should divorce him, but it is so hard to make that call to the lawyer. I supposedly get a free half hour consult, so I could just get basic facts, it is just so hard to do. To admit defeat.