I feel like I’m too stupid to do anything...

Growing up my mom always downplayed ANY of my accomplishments. I remember when I passed my permit test on the first try and was excited about it, but when I told my mom she just turned to my brother (who is older and doesn’t have it) and said, “see, if she can do it then you can do it” and joked about how that if I could do something, that pretty much anyone could because I’m so much stupider than everyone else. She has always favored my brother, so it’s like no matter what I do he’s still the smarter and better one even though he does NOTHING. Well over the years I have started to believe it and now I’m too scared to even go to college because I feel like I’m too stupid. I’m scared I can’t do anything right and when I went looking for a job I was terrified I was too stupid to even work at a fast food place. My whole family jokes about it, but it’s mom that says it in a way that really hurts. I don’t know what to do and I don’t know how to get over this fear of mine 😞 it has kept me from doing so many things and I’m scared I’ll waste my life away because I was too scared to even try. It’s like, I know I have so much potential but I’m so scared that I’ll mess things up or that I won’t be good enough.