Need advice

I masturbate everyday sometimes twice a day because my husband doesn’t want to give me sex everyday only once a week so I could barely feel him. Today we did it I could barely orgasm. He doesn’t eat me out or anything I’ve asked him he said once he didn’t think it was that necessary. He says maybe it’s because I masturbate so much that I can’t sometimes and that I could barely feel pleasure before it was everyday then it went from twice a week two every two weeks. He doesn’t finger me he just puts it in.he just thinks of him self I cry myself every night over this and I’m always in a bad mood but sadly I can’t be with him we been married two years I been living this nightmare I need a man to eat me out I feel like maybe it’s so much the resentment towards him rejecting me before because a long time ago I tried to imitate and sometimes he rejected me so I stoped. He says why I’m always mad it is his fault. I need to have a real orgasm again like years ago when we first started dating it was all perfect until time went on and we got married. I’m into severe depression. I actually kind of still love him that’s what hurts the most this hursts so fucking bad crying myself to sleep at night. I feel like I’m dying inside.of saddnes. I have told my husband this many times he doesn’t want therapy he doesn’t want to fix it.