Nights with a newborn

Baby starts fussing at 2AM. You hold still and silent like you’re in a scene from Jurassic Park. It doesn’t work. You soothe and change baby’s diaper. He poops mid change. You make a bottle as baby cries and feed. Then you sit baby at a 45 degree angle for 20 minutes to help his digestion. He falls asleep. You assemble your pump and start your session. Your pumps suction isn’t quite right. You take the time to troubleshoot and adjust but still only get two ounces. It’s time to turn out the lights and get some rest. Baby starts fussing again. You change poopy diaper as baby pees mid change. Now baby needs new pajamas and swaddle. You clean and redress baby. He pulls your hand into his mouth every chance he gets

. Time to feed again. You give baby the recently expressed milk and keep him upright for another 20 minutes. This time baby isn’t interested in being put down. You rock and rub your eyes. The birds chirp. And SOMEHOW it’s all still worth it. ♥️