Ex bf ..

Well honestly , I got cheated on and left for another female which was my bsf uh am I irritated not really anymore it is what it is ? I kinda have trust issues because I wasn’t expecting this to turn out this way , like Ik I can’t go back for some reason I want to give him another chance idk why , Ik it’s dumb if i do he’s not really messing with me like that , at the same time I atleast just wanna have a fwb situation , I feel dumb if I do Ik it’s not smart I miss him I kinda want something where I do whatever I want while he does the same Bc like there’s no point of a relationship if he’s just gonna cheat like a part of me still wants him around, he’s unreliable and kinda folds on plans Ik it’s not his fault , like it’s complicated I feel very mixed about the situation