heartbroken & lost

so my two year relationship with my boyfriend is over. just two years on april 4th.. my heart hurts so much i literally have nobody im always all alone, i literally have no friends and im serious i have not a single soul to turn to and i don’t even wanna be here anymore, not because we aren’t together but it sure as hell didn’t help. with that and everything else falling apart around me and it seems like things cant get any worse & they do, they always do. i just miss being happy, i honestly don’t remember what it felt like to be genuinely happy, i have an overactive bladder at 17 on top of all the other shit im dealing w & i wouldn’t wish it upon my worst enemy let me put it that way, its way way wayyyyy to much to put into a text but im really going through it rn and i just need somebody, anybody im tired of being alone i don’t know how much more i can honestly take. i feel like my minds a ticking time bomb and im about to blow up if im alone for another second because that gives me all the time in the world to overthink shit.

i realize now re-reading this it probably makes no sense but i had to put it out there.