Im losing my mind

So I have a toddler with CP. I also have a 4 month old baby. I’m a SAHM, which I love don’t get me wrong because I love being with my kids. But Jesus. Sometimes I just can’t do it 😭

Ive always had back problems because I slipped & landed on my tail bone when I was a teenager.

So my back is pretty fucked up.

But dude! Like some days I want to throw in the towel. My 4 year old just loves making a mess, I’m having a hard time potty training him because of his cerebral palsy. There’s a lot of lifting him to do things, he just requires a lot of assistance. Which isn’t bad, because I know he depends on me a lot due to his condition. & I’m happy to be doing it all, but sometimes I just can’t 😭 sometimes it’s just so much. My husband works all day, so I do most of it on my own. When he’s here he helps me a lot with him so that I can be with the baby. I just need support from you mamas. That’s literally all I’m asking for 😔