Some help?

I’m 17. My phone 18. He 100% normal teenage. I’m not. He had good childhood whet school had friends. Teenage hood. He got his driver license. He work got his car. We’re dating now he’s about graduate.

My child was full of drama. I got took out of school in 4th grade never got put back in. My mom never allowed me leave the house. Never had friends never worked. He tells all this stories. I like hearing them but it makes me feel sad I can’t get over this feeling it’s make me upset. I don’t even want go graduation. I hate this time of year. Idk what to do with my feeling