Help weird spot in my relationship

Long story short: I have CPTSD and this his is first relationship. I’ve been struggling with empathy and mentally clocking out for days , I recently switched therapist and weening off medication. It’s been hard on him bc I’m not as affectionate , loving and mentally here with him. He tells me how unhappy he is and he feels like I don’t care to change.

( we met on July , moved in on October bc of my household)

I feel like he’s on me too much, he wants a lot of physical affection which I have trauma on.

We will argue every other day but I find myself rolling my eyes and like saying to myself “ I can’t have a good day without it being about my something “ it feels like everything wrong is bc of the lack of treatment and my mental Illness (which is probably 99% true)

Now in our last argument it was indirectly clear that he shouldn’t be with me bc we rushed into this and we are not emotionally ready for a relationship and it just such a weird relief type feeling. Idk what to do with that information, I actually didn’t even want a relationship when I met him it just sorta happened and it all feels right. But I see more and more that it’s hard to empathize and my brain is so all over the place. I have symptoms of ADHD and BPD and it’s getting worse , Ik he shouldn’t be with me and he knows he’s crazy to deal with me but it’s so weird idk ... I wish I could see my therapist sooner :/