Struggle/Rant

I am really upset. I am very happy with who i am as an ace person but i still feel broken. i am afraid that the person i like won’t like me back because of that. most of the time i am ok with who i am but some days it hits harder than usual. i really wish i could be like everyone else and want to have sex. i seem like something special but i get uncomfortable when i think about it often. i don’t know if anyone else understand but i just need to rant a bit. i am also on the aro spectrum so sometime i don’t even know if i want a relationship but other days i do. i am lost and feel alone but i know that someday it will be ok