Weird question ....

How long were you with your husband before splitting up?

Me and my husband have been married for 2 years but dating for 5 years.

He has always been a drinker, but never got too bad or to where I’d be concerned. We lost our daughter in 2018. I was 20 weeks pregnant and miscarried her.

We were both pretty depressed after but had to move on with our lives.

I noticed his drinking has gotten bad and he is always angry. When he drinks, he’ll get blacked out drunk and just say really mean things to me and to anyone around him. We now have a 1 year old son and I figured he’d calm down after.... well.... he hasn’t. He had gotten drunk and at friends party and tried to fight all our friends, he called me stupid and told me he didn’t need me, that I was just holding him back from anything.

Then he got drunk at a family event and tried to fight my dad and told my mom he wanted to divorce me... and was just being really ugly towards me. Told my family that he didn’t need me or my son, he told my parents they meant nothing to him and just very hurtful words. We’ve been trying to work things out because we are married and we have our son, but I really just can’t look at him the same way anymore. I understand he has a lot of hurt, but that’s also not fair to me. He doesn’t want to go see a therapist. He tells me he did nothing wrong because he was just drunk and he doesn’t remember. But I can’t forgive him, I can’t let go of the things said... to me and to my parents.

I don’t feel comfortable with him touching me anymore, I don’t want to have sexual interactions with him anymore... I just don’t know what to do. I don’t want to give up so easily but I don’t even know if I’m happy anymore :/

I just wanted to come on here to vent.