No more kids

I know people don’t mean any harm by it and honestly have no idea/forget/etc. That’s fine. I don’t hold it against anyone.

But it stings when I’ve had people ask me if we’re having anymore kids.

3 times in one week and all 3 different people.

It doesn’t upset me they asked. There’s a lot of emotions that makes me feel. Sad, because it’ll never happen and nothing can change that. Angry, because as childish as it sounds... it’s just not fair. Not just for me but the thought our daughter will never get to be a big sister.

I always respond politely and remind those who know our situation that we can’t have anymore but we sure are thankful for our sweetie we already have.

To those who don’t know our situation, I just simply say we can’t have anymore and move on. Don’t want to open another depressing topic and mention my husband has terminal cancer and explaining how chemo effects it all lol.

I know it’s not the end of the world. But it definitely stings.

Nothing in my life has gone as I planned or hoped it to BUT I will sure as heck make the best out of it all.

Because maybe that’s just not in my cards to have more kids. Maybe some things have happened to lead me to the people I’ve met this past year and everything that’s happened to me was in preparation for what’s to come.

Can never say for sure but I’m in control of my happiness and I’m choosing to feed my mind with positive thoughts.