Why am I like this ???

I am such an awful mom, i cant seem to understand myself.

I always wanted to be a mom... but shn i did everything went downhill. I am always angry at my 16 month old sweet pie. And i keep promising myself that i wont do it again but i do it evey--f*ck**g-- time.

I hate myself and i hate myself even more when my mom points it out for me because i already know it and ice tlked to her sbout it and how i dont want to be this way,

I dont deserve my baby i amthe worst bitchmother out there.

I dont have patience for him and i get worse when i dont get my sleep.

I deserve to be dead.