I care more than my boyfriend.

I hope it’s okay writing this here. So we are ttc our 2nd now. We have been at it for 6 months, and I find it so so exhausting. I’m constantly looking for signs in my body with ovulation, symptoms, is AF coming or not. And every time I get a bfn I’m devastated.

But my son is 17 months now and I can’t be sad around him. My boyfriend gets annoyed if I bring it up so I can’t be sad around him either. I honestly feel like I can’t be sad at all because I already have a son, right?

My boyfriend isn’t bothered by it, and he thinks I’m dramatic because I keep getting sad. He says he is not in any rush and can’t see the problem. So I feel like I can’t talk to him about these feelings because he shrugs it off like it’s nothing.

I don’t have any friends to talk to about this either, so I’m pretty much all alone with this.

I wish I could talk to someone. I feel so guilty about these feelings because again, I already have a son! And how can I be sad when I already have the perfect little boy?

Thank you for reading this, I just had to let it out somewhere.