*sigh*

I speak to these people, I spoke to these people, I finally join a group with these people but I’m not welcome? No not me, I don’t get a hug or my name screamed in excited no, only the other person joining with me does. How exciting, it’s been months and I am expected to sit alone, out of place. Yes my anxiety stopped me from doing it but I finally did only to be let down and not encouraged to do so. All that time I spent with these people was great but I was always in the background. Only when this person cries everybody is worried they know somethings wrong, i on the other hand. Whenever I’m not around photos are taken, when they are they don’t ask me to be in them. When there are conversations I am out of the circle. Every fucking time, I see someone else missing out and make room only to be shut out. I’m sick of it, sick of it, it can’t just be social anxiety, I’m just no ones go to, no ones best friend. I can only be that person people know of but never notice. I’m fucking invisible and it’s getting worse and worse.