Gender disappointment

Firstly I know how lucky we are to be able to conceive. I know I will love all my children unconditionally.

I have just had my 20 weeks scan and we are having a girl. Most people's dream a boy (his 11months old) and a girl (due in September). I'm also very lucky to have an amazing teenage step son.

I'm gutted, I couldn't hide it and cried. With our first we didn't find out but with them being so close in age and living in a small house we wanted time to prep and both my husband and I said we would need time to get used to the idea of a girl.

I feel like a awful mother but I'm so worried I want bond with a girl.

Has anyone else had gender disappointment, how did you deal with it?

Again I know how lucky we are and it's a wonderful 'problem' to have but I still can't get my head around it!