A little bummed out

My hubby is always busy, he works 12 hour night shifts but has to be at work an hour early always and most of the time he’s there and hour later as well, so technically 14 hours, so on the days that he works all he does at home is sleep, which I’m not complaining about, I’m just saying this as a reference, and that’s like half the week, but on the days he has off there’s always something he needs done, always something he has to take care of, and I’ve asked him what if I just really needed him home, some days I just feel really depressed and I just want him with me, I don’t want other company because my best friend lives like hours away and she’s the only other person that I’d like with me ( my parents both passed away years ago) I’m a sahm and I love my baby girl but I just get so lonely, when my mother was alive she had to work multiple jobs to keep a roof over our heads because my stepdad was an alcoholic… and half the time he was in jail, so it would just be me and my brother and we didn’t really have a lot in common, we are 6 years apart, after my mother passed my little brother had to stay with my stepfather because that’s his dad, but at the time I was blaming him for my moms death so I didn’t wanna live with him so I lived with my aunts, with one for like a year and then the other when she moved away, and i was alone, all the time, my mother sapped away on a Saturday and my aunt took me to school that Monday and my grandma kept telling me to stop crying because my tears won’t bring her back… so I isn’t get time to grieve her and for 6 years (until I met my husband) I was literally alone, no one wanted to hang out, and the few times I did hang out I wasn’t really enjoying it because it was my friend dragging me along to double dates since I was her only single friend, anyway I met my husband and we clicked right away, I honestly started thinking that I’m finally not going to be alone all the time, but ever since we got married, I’ve been alone 90% of the time, and he just doesn’t understand why it bothers me so much, other than this one issue he’s great but I’ve tried to talk to him about it over and over but we end up arguing about it and I’m so tired of arguing about it, he’s also doing online school so he can make more money so now even if he is home he’s not really with me and it hurts me… last night he was finishing a course and said he had 10 minutes left and he’s be done, our baby was sleeping so I just decided to wait for him, but 10 minutes passed like long long ago so I kept asking if he’s almost done, finally after like almost 2 hours he said he’s taking a quiz and it’s not gonna be 10 minutes and he said it like he was annoyed.. which I guess I understand because I kept asking, I was just really craving to feel loved and important last night so… I just ended up going to sleep on my own, he’s doing errands right now and I don’t know when he’s coming home and I still feel a little hurt from last night…Idk… I just wanted to vent this out…. I don’t wanna sound whiney or anything like that

EDIT: just as an FYI, this isn’t the first time he says something will be quick but ends up being longer, he always says he’s gonna be 10 minutes but ends up being 4 hours, he says he’ll be home at 7, comes home at 10, he says we’ll spend the whole day together, just our family, spends like 3 hours with me and somehow finds errands he needs to do for the rest of the day, I wasn’t nagging him, I just asked if he’s almost done and he kept saying yes just a few more minutes, if he had said it was going to take a few hours I wouldn’t have gotten my hopes up, I’m just tired of being by myself ALL THE TIME, the whole day he was busy and yesterday so we didn’t spend time yesterday, and before that he was working 4 days, so I missed him and I really wanted some quality time with him before we went to bed, I honestly don’t think that asking for an hour of quality time after a week of basically no communication is asking for too much, I appreciate the hard work he does for us but I miss him