I’m literally crying but trying to hold it..

My husband and I have been TTC for the past 7 months and I have been tracking my days for the past 2 months and we TTC last month but no joy and so this month again I travked my days and since Monday it has been my fertile week but because he works night shift we only had TTC yesterday I also took an ovulation test and the line was getting dark almost close enough like the control line and today I took another test and the test line is darker then the control line meaning I’m ready to ovulate and we tried but he couldn’t finish since he has so much stress going on and would try to get some sleep first and try again before he leaves to work. I tried waking him up but he was to sleepy so I just let him sleep since he works night shift and so after he woke up to get ready for work and I told him tomorrow let’s try to TTC and he told me stop pressuring me. When for the past 3 months he keeps telling me hopefully this is our month and you don’t get your period and I want to have a baby already.. and then he tells me this when I’m tracking my days so we can try to make it happen.. I’m crying at the moment just thinking about what he told me that idk if I should be crying or just stop tracking my days..