i’ve been so upset lately

i’m going into my third year of university and currently it feels like i have no friends especially living in my hometown rn

honestly throughout my whole life i’ve always been the second choice. i’ll try to make plans with friends, they don’t answer until they tell me last minute they made other plans. even my bf makes me feel like a second option. he just never seems to make plans with me and when i try to make plans with him he’s busy with friends!

i used to be sooo social and always went out and made the best memories. idk what happened but i just feel so lonely now and its starting to effect me