Idk if it’s the pregnancy horomones or him…

I am SO SICK of my husband. Idk if it’s my pregnancy hormones or if the pregnancy is affecting him or what. But he is being so mean about EVERYTHING. I’m going to rant.

1. The fence guy told me he had an opening tomorrow or the next day which wasn’t enough of a notice for my husband (he has to clear out the branches in the way) and he was PISSED at ME! I didn’t choose for them to tell us so close to when they were going to come idk what his issue is. He said it’s my fault. I don’t even understand what would be my fault?

2. He refused to come to a family party (my side) because he just doesn’t want too. And it’s been over a year since we have seen them. I told him it was important to me and he said he is an adult and gets to decide what he wants to do.

3. When i was more sick than i am now, he told me he had a good project for me to work on. (Mind you i was barley getting off the couch/bed and throwing up all the time) and the project was organizing the basement! I was barley able to keep the dishes clean and every other chore was being ignored until i started feeling better, let alone CLEANING THE BASEMENT.

4. My mom lives about two blocks away amd we are so close. Sometimes during the week days i go over there with our two year old son because i need any help i can get and he gets mad at me for going to my moms so often. He says i just don’t like being home? I don’t understand why he cares. He has been working from home and now that he sees what i do during the day he always has something to say about it and tell me what I’m doing wrong or what i “should” be doing.

He isn’t the worst all the time. But i feel like he isn’t very happy being married to me. He acts like I’m so annoying when i try to have a conversation with him when he’s playing video games and it hurts my feelings. Everything i want to do or talk about he blows off.

Back story:

We eloped because my mom convinced me to marry him (at age 20) because we were going on a trip together and thought it would be too tempting to have sex. We were Very Christian. LDS specifically. I HATED the day we eloped. I hate talking about it and i hate looking back on it and i cried on our wedding day because i gave up my dream wedding to get married to someone who i wasn’t ready to marry in a ugly ass building by ourselves. We didn’t have any money to have the wedding we wanted at the time and ended up having some shitty reception a year later that we had to pay for ourselves.

I look back and think we made a huge mistake. When things are good I’m happy but i feel like things haven’t been the same since we got married 4 years ago.

I know i only have the crappy stuff to say right now, but there is a lot of good stuff. But would those reasons alone be enough to leave him?

I’m pregnant with our second and don’t want to be alone and leaving is scary but i am feeling defeated.