Shitty mom

I’m 20 and pregnant the dad is around some times. I feel like he only comes around when no one want to entertain his bs or have sex with me. He told me he wasn’t ready for another child but I decided to keep my baby anyways. I’m 21 weeks and I don’t regret keeping her but I just think she might hate me as a mother. I have anxiety attacks a lot. I dropped out of college. I live with toxic parents I’m on the verge of being homeless. I have to spend the little money I do have on rides to and from work because I obviously can’t save up for a car. Its so hard to find apartments where I live and I really want her to have her own home when she leaves the hospital. I just feel like I failed her and she isn’t here yet. Sometimes I just need just one person to tell me I’m doing my best and that everything’s going to work out for us. But I don’t get that so I’m just stuck here in my thoughts feeling like a failure.