So much milk wasted 😭

My daughter got a positive RSV result today. She’s only 4 months old and I’m so upset about it. I was wanting to give her some of the colostrum I had saved up.. I went to get it out of my deep freezer and I realized that when the power went out a couple of days ago due to a storm that the freezer never turned back on… I had GALLONS of my boobie milk saved up in there… but what I’m most upset about is that my colostrum is gone. The milk can be replaced but it’s not like I can just produce more colostrum. I am so bummed about it 😭

I tried tasting it and so did my husband but it tasted so bad that we both gagged…

I just felt like giving her the colostrum was the only part of this situation that I could control. Because there’s literally nothing that they can do to help RSV go away faster. So I was like omg I have colostrum!! And then come to find it was all bad.

I’m just kind of kicking myself for not checking to make sure it cut back on after the storm. But it just never really crossed my mind since everything else came back on.

I know my breast milk will change to properly help her fight this but I’m still just so upset about my colostrum. I cried about it, not going to lie.