Advice wanted

Hi guys

I am getting help for this I just want to see if I’m not alone on this

My son is 14 weeks and I have postnatal anxiety

This is all based around germs pretty much.

I hardly leave the house and avoid people I clean everyday and then still panic that things aren’t sanitary

I was like this in my pregnancy ( but never prior to that) I relaxed after birth but then my partner got a cold sore and I was terrified the germs/virus would spread to my baby and ever since then I’ve been over the top

(Thankfully our son didn’t get the cold sore virus)

I avoid my friends

I avoid my family

I avoid going places

I yell at my husband to wash his hands 100 times a day, after patting dog, being outside, eating ect

My hands are bleeding from washing and sanitizer

I feel sick when someone is holding him or touches him

I screen every guest I have over for cold sores and sickness and try to put them off coming over until he’s a bit older

I don’t feel normal and it’s exhausting I am hoping I can start to ease up as I know some germs are good for building an immune system

Tomorrow it’s our first outing as a family and im excited but nervous im scared something will freak me out and it will turn into a big fight. My baby is 15 weeks in two days