Scared

Hi guys.

Who else is terrified?

I had a miscarriage at 16 weeks in January. It was a fully healthy pregnancy, baby was growing and tracking well then suddenly it was over in a hugely tramatic way. They still cant work out why. I needed 2 operations to clear the placenta and was facing a 3rd but finally got the clearance in april.

I turned 40 in Feb. That was my first ever pregnancy and we got pregnant in 3 months of being married.

Since my miscarriage i have been unwell severe oedema in my legs. Its like play dough. And just not felt great.

I am just sooo scared we wont get pregnant again and if we do same thing will happen.

How do you all cope with fear and get the positivity going?

We just got Michaels ashes back on thursday after all these months. And it hurts so face some days i cant face it