Help..

Hello to whoever is reading this. I turned to here because I feel like I have simply no other place to turn too and I wish anyone who can read this can help me or some shed some light on me. I’m 24 years old I graduated college in the times of corona finding a job was impossible obviously. I have no signed up to take real estate classes next month which I’m excited about. I do not have a my driver license because of the fear

Of driving I have took the Initiative to go to the dmv and take the test so I can get on the road and face my fears. I started going to the gym to improve my mental health. I’m in a great relationship. But these past two weeks I’ve been feeling waves of depression. I don’t know what it is. I went from being cheerful to dry and bland. I don’t have motivation to eat clean or clean my room or do my laundry or go to the gym or draw. I feel like my life has become a routine. I feel like I’m suffocating or in my head. This is not the first time I feel like this it comes in waves and sometimes I don’t know what it is. I haven’t even seen my friends in a while. I don’t even answer their text messages or call back. I sleep a lot through day. I feel like I’m waiting for my days to pass so the next day could come. I have nothing to look forward too. Sometimes I get burst of motivation and happiness and then it just dies down. My boyfriend is great but he complains about his financial struggle. He doesn’t have that good of a job but he works very hard. My days seem to be 5 days straight of blandness and no motivation and then 2 days of seeing him. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to fix me. I cry all day and I don’t know how to pull myself out of this rut. I feel like it’s consuming me, I just want to be happy. I want to enjoy life like however else is. I’m trying but I feel like I’m not trying hard enough and I don’t know how too.