I’m about to pour my heart out. I can’t do it anymore. I have had anxiety for 4 years now. Its gotten worse over the last year. I’m not sure if it was covid but i think i understand why. I have emetephobia ( fear of vomit) and that reflects into my anxiety. Meaning if i get anxious, i will feel like i’m gunna be sick so it resukts in more anxiety.

Last year i got my braces removed, and it was good, at my impression i only gagged once or twice, but hated it. i didn’t go into an anxiety spiral. However, the second day when they made my retainer and i collected it, i gagged a lot. When i went outside, the air was so cold and thin and it hit my throat. It made me gag so much i Sprinted to my car and found a tub of scented vaseline to smell. I was really upset after. Since then, i have been afraid to go outside, talk too much, travel in the morning, and so much more. it comes and goes. Sometimes i’ll be fine, others not so much. i’m currently in my bathroom and it’s 8:30am. I need to get ready for a meeting. But i can’t with this feeling. I’m shaking and crying, it’s that bad