Just turned 44

I envy all of you ladies on this community board. This would be my second post thus far. I was ecstatic to find out we were pregnant at 43 after having two back to back miscarriages at 7 weeks and then 10 weeks. This time right before I turned 44 to celebrate my birthday in Hawaii with my family and friends, the pregnancy stopped developing at some point. I was praying for my rainbow baby for the longest. It’s been about almost two years we’ve been trying naturally. I guess there are good and bad batches. I seem to be unlucky. The thought of being one step closer seeing the yolk sac and embryo on the ultrasound really gave me hope. Instead I went on vacation with a pregnancy that I lost inside of me. That feeling is devastating. We just came back from our trip last Friday night and today I was scheduled for a D&C. Emotionally I wasn’t there. My fiancé did not give me the support I was looking for. Am I suppose to give up and have someone else’s egg implanted in me? That was his other option. It’s crazy! To those moms out there still willing to try, never give up on yourself. Stay positive and have the right intentions, it is there waiting for you. We are all individually blessed.🙏🏼❤️