For context my mum used to be anorexic and she never really dealt with it. To this day she's still very obsessed about what she eats and she has now gone the orthorexic way.. eats a good amount of food but exercises a lot. She never really admitted to having a problem but my grandma has always told me she did.

She had me when she was 16, I'm 27 now. With me I feel like I always have gone the opposite way, I'm OBSESSED with food but more in a binge eating way which lead me to be quite big... still not massive but I do feel extremely fat. The only time in my life I lost weight was when my food obsession went the other way and was only eating 500 kcals a day (i know it's bad I'm aware). However I went back to my binge eating within a year and have been eating that way ever since.

Quite recently after chats with my mum I'm starting to realise that maybe all of this was accidentally caused by the way she raised me? She always commented on my weight and what I eat or don't eat. Since I have memory she always had me on diets. I thought I was fat all my life but looking back onto some childhood pics.. I wasn't fat why did she always say I was overweight?

I don't want to blame her because she did what she could and if she's ill herself it's very difficult but... could it be possible that I have this way of eating/thinking about food and my figure because of how she raised me?