Frustrated & fed up!!

Why do guys say they want a loyal girl that will hold them down & be there for them whenever but don't fuckin appreciate her!? Why!? I've been nothing but loyal & good to him but you wanna keep in contact with your ex (for what? Fuck her) but if I do so all hell will break loose! Maybe I'm overthinking it but you know what, I don't care. I'm frustrated with this "he can do whatever he wants while I sit home & watch tv all the time" shit. Can't wait to see him so I can show him just how crazy I can be.