I'm so angry.. I'm up, it's 12:20 am where I am... hubby and animals are all asleep, which is ok, he has early days. This is where it's most painful. In the dark, when I'm alone.

I'm just angry... I've been chronically ill for 10 years. I've had 4 stomach surgeries in 3 years. I had to quit school and haven't worked in months and now my baby is gone? Part of me is gone? It's not fair.

I know the world isn't fair. I know some people have it worse. I know I'm not in control. But it just seems like my husband and I are handed more troubles than we deserve. I want to go a a month without being in the hospital and I want my baby. Why is that too much to ask ?