Freaking out

I’m 6 days pp and with my other two pregnancies I don’t believe I ever had a hemorrhoid.. however, I think I might’ve just had one while going to the bathroom because when I wiped there was blood back there… can you like die or anything from it ? I’m shaking cause like I know nothing about it and I don’t wanna google it cause my anxiety will take over. Please don’t judge me for not knowing..