I’m devastated

My husband just told me that i need to be open mind, because I can’t have it all(love, family and stability 🏠) . He can be my husband and will give me everything i need but he will have someone else, and I told him that we never talked about that, I don’t agree about what he thinks. (Tomorrow we will star ivf) he doesn’t have someone else but I never thought he would want to have someone else and still wants to be with me. I’m heartbroken 💔 I don’t know what to think or do. I’m confused at this moment. I feel like I started to die inside. How can i be happy if he is thinking that. How can I proceed the IVF treatment. He wants a family with me, we have been married for 9yrs, no kids because he can’t that’s why we decided to do the ivf. I can’t talk to no one about this, i feel ashamed because I thought i have someone who loved me. I’m broken right now. God help please, I’m thinking of taken my life. I never thought he would tell me this ever. 💔💔💔💔🥺😢