WHEN WILL THEY STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT

I've had a bit of wine excuse me.. BUT WHEN WILL MY MANS FAMILY STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE I AM NOTHING?

I have been trying so hard with my SOs family who make the effort to not let me in.

I get it. I really do, you wanna know why? Let's start with the oldest of my 5 brothers. I am the first born. He has kids, and speaking personally from my experience I LOVED his child's mother. When she was pregnant I took her in. My brother is an adult idiot And that doesn't mean SHE should suffer so I took her under a wing and you know that ended with one DAMN of a metaphorical fork in my eye and 4 more in my back. I got close to what I consider SATAN so I completely understand why they look at me like... like I look at ALL of my brothers girlfriends. I know that look, because I GIVE that look.

I'm kind, because I know she'll be gone soon. My brother has gone through 2-3 girls he THOUGHT was "THE ONE." Like bro.. okay yea you told me she's "the one". Okay... how long until I meet the next one. 🥲

Do you see what I'm saying? I get the look because I give the look.

But I love this man... so much. And if he'll have me, If he'll let me.. i WONT Go anywhere.

I honestly don't know if I've ever been so inlove in my life. I'm literally raising his child. As far as I know, nobody has ever been NEAR his child let alone raising her unless he's just bold faced lying to me and I mean I'm pretty sure she would be like "you ain't the first one." She's old enough. She's 7. If I wasn't the first woman around to literally take care of her the way that I am, I do not think I would be as close as I am.

Honest to myself, cut me down, But I think I love his child more than I love him. I have Never given birth to anyone, and I didn't give birth to her. But something in my soul was MOWED DOWN for her and given room. Those old trees that stood in the way of her were burned. Maybe by god himself, but there are things he only knows because she comes to only me. You can't fake that, you cant fake that with any child. She comes before him.

So when I tell you I am not anything like the jane doodoos he's brought around his family, I mean it. So I ask, HOW long until they accept me? How long until they stop looking at me like that?how long until I am no longer literally outcasted by them? His daughter doesn't even understand it. Here's the thing, that's her FAMILY. I do everything to make sure they're involved in her life I literally go out of my way so she can see them, spend time with them. So they can love on her because they do LOVE her so deeply.

But I can tell you one thing. They do not give a shit about me. They don't invite me and they don't care. It hurts, and I get it. But what length of time has to pass before they see me for who I am. I am good to their brother, their son, but more importantly I'd rip someone's face off for that baby without even blinking like an absolute psychopath

I try not to psychologically analyze people but I think I get it. My man got with her mother when they were still teenagers and they took her in. She's nowhere to be found so they don't know how to incorporate a motherly figure into their time with her. Her mother is nowhere to be found and here I come along and I'm involved like I am and they're probably like "gtfo nobody ever needed you." Because they love her and she went 6 years being perfect without a mother. And I'm just like hi I love her and they're like we don't care. What are you even here for