Needing to vent 😤😫

My son is driving me crazy. Some days hes good but the older he gets hes getting impossible to handle. He hits (so.i slap his diaper) or be pinched and when I bath him he stands up and holds on to the handles for the water. Even when you spank him he still does the shit he got spanked for doing. He makes messes, he knocks shit over, he throws a tantrum.

I'm tired and stressed and regret having a child and I feel bad for regretting my son but I am doing this alone. His dad works and I'm trying to get a job but when I do I'll still be the one dealing with it. I feel like im losing my damn mind.

I stayed up last night until 1 AM so I could clean and get some me time because I NEVER do but my husband has all the time he wants when he wants it.

I feel bad for feeling this way but I'm human.

Just needed to vent .😫