I give up on ttc

2 yrs and 6 months today I started ttc. It hurts me even more that I can't carry something I want so much. It's taken so much on my mental health that I can't even go to fertility for help because I get the same answers. Well it all started 8 months after starting to concieve I went to a fertility doc and they said I have pcos and gave me metformin for irregular periods I would like skip a month sometimes well they gave me metformin it regulated my cycles and I was on metformin for 3 months. First month off, I had a chemical. It's been almost a year since the chemical well anyways my cycles have been regular ever since until may 22 2021 and it's now sep 22 2021. May 22 was my last period and it's been 4 months and I've never gone this long without one. A month ago I went to another fertility doc in a diff state because I moved and they said for me to lose weight, I have pcos and small cyst on my ovaries. Nothing to worry about tho he said once I get my period come back and do an hsg test and I still haven't got it. Almost 3 yrs of ttc I just don't think I can. I work a serving job so I run around about 3 miles burning 300-400 calories but the scale just doesn't seem to change and I'm eating in a calorie deficit idk maybe I'm losing inches idk. But I rlly hate this. I truly feel like I will have to go thru ivf or iui and it just saddens me how hard and long this journey has taken🥺🥺🥺