God has blessed me 💙

On this day a year ago I had gone in to the hospital for an elective induction. No birth plan, No idea of what would happen, just me and my husband.

I got signed in, dressed up in a gown and waited. Blood had been drawn, an IV was started, the hormone had been administered and we waited. Time passed by and when it seemed like nothing happened I had dilated.

They removed the hormone and after a very painful cervix check I was told I was in active labor and at 4 cm. Contractions were painful and brought tears but once the epidural was administered it was okay.

Nurses came to turn me in every different position for me to be told on the 24th in the early morning that my boys heart rate was dropping and my doctor wanted to talk to me. I was tired at the time he came in (6 AM) but he came in and asked about a Csection and I knew that if I refused it was putting my sons life at risk.

I was prepped, I prayed countless times to myself and was wheeled back with my husband and at around 7 the process began. I was calm in the operating room, the staff were friendly and my husband tried to keep it together (he has anxiety). My doctor told me I would feel pressure and seconds later at 7:45 I heard my son cry for the first time.

At 7:45 on September 24th in an operating room God gave me my baby boy. The baby I prayed for, the baby that gave and still gives me a purpose.

A year ago god gave me my best friend. I feel like a bad mom and like I fail him daily but I'm glad God chose me and trusted me with this little life. God gave me a son because he knew I would need him more than he needed me.

I am beyond blessed 💙