After spending 5 years with my boyfriend, I’ve realized I need to leave. I still love him but I am miserable and know it’s for the best.

We met in college and moved to a new state to start careers together. I have no idea how I’m going to get my own place but I guess it’s time to to figure it out.

He doesn’t know I’m leaving. For years, all I wanted was his love and affection. I fought for us. Even when I shouldn’t have. I hoped everyday that he would propose and we could get married and start a family.

Looking back there were so many bright red flashing flags but I ignored them. It sounds dumb but I had the weirdest revelation this past weekend.

Literally the nicest weather weekend that we could have spent doing so many fun things. Instead he wanted to clean up and update his truck. But I couldn’t go do anything bc he needed someone around while the truck was lifted in case anything went wrong. Then when he was done I was like, awesome, lets go get ice cream! Fun quick spontaneous date!

He was miserable to be around. Pouted abc complained the entire way there and back that it was a stupid idea. Frowned in the ice cream line and was so snippy with me. Not only was this beautiful weekend wasted, but I hated being around him. He was so negative.

While there are obviously way more serious issues at play. But not enjoying going to get ice cream and taking the fun out of it for me?! It made me take a step back and realize, so I want to be unhappy like this for the rest of my life? He is ALWAYS so negative.

I’m at the point now that i don’t want him to propose because I would feel stuck to him. That was when I knew, girl you love him but this ain’t it!

Once again before you come for me… ice cream date was not what made me leave. It was just one of those lights bulb moments among so many bigger issues!