How do I get through this?

It's the next day after finding out are sweet baby is now an angel. We wanted to meet her so bad, more then anything in this world but things don't always go as planned. The time she was alive gave us so much excitement and love in our hearts. Today I am still carrying her inside me but she's not alive. This pain is unbearable. This is my second miscarriage in a row and there was only a 3 percent chance that this would happen again. I am having a missed miscarriage, no symptoms or signs what so ever until our ultrasound showed her heart stopped beating and she stopped growing. I have a appointment today to talk about my options for inducing a miscarriage. I hate this I don't want to pick how I want my baby to leave me forever. I can't even look down at my belly bump without breaking down in tears. THIS HURTS SO MUCH. you'll be in our hearts forever Ivy Lynn