Divorce soon

My husband has lacked financial support for me and my 3 kids for a long time. He mainly focuses on his music career and getting followers on his Facebook groups and selling beats. He doesn’t bring in any income with this yet but it takes up 90% of his day. I get so upset and frustrated because he’s almost 40 I just turned 35 and I need more stability for me and my babies? Am I wrong for that? I’m not saying stop following your dreams but have a financial support system set up as well to help your wife with bills and expenses. I get paid we can’t do much cause he has no money to enjoy little things with me. Don’t get me wrong I’ve paid for us both but it’s pricey and tiresome after years of being this way. He thinks buying me some tacos or chic fila when he has a little extra money is enough 🤦🏽‍♀️. I like going out on dates and try and spice or romance up because We’ve been through so much…but I can’t do it alone…. I bring it up he gets upset. He said he’s not a

trick 😢 Like really??? We rent a house and the lawn is not included as far as grass cutting. I ask him for help getting the grass cut and he said that’s the property owners job and I don’t own the house so he’s not paying for it. When he gets money from his dad like $150 or $200 I never know. He just buys weed and maybe throw $20 in my trucks gas tank. He says things like I don’t ask him for anything. But I feel he should know I need something! And when I do ask he doesn’t have it! He’s so mean and cold . We had a previous abusive relationship. Idek if it still is honestly because im so lost in this matrix with him. He used to hit me and choke me but he hasn’t put his hands on me physically in 2 years. We’ve been together for 11. We are currently Separated and he’s staying in his late grandmothers home that she left to him and our two boys. I think I should keep it this way and file for a divorce because I don’t see him ever changing at 37 years old.