PLEASE READ!

I realize this is going to sound hard and selfish of me, but I cannot shake my anger and I really need constructive criticism, not rudeness.

Hubs and I were BD last night. We typically try to go quick because my 14 month old isn’t the best sleeper but we had extra time so we did foreplay, he was very into it, and has been the one asking me if we can try for #2. He initiated BD and we haven’t been in a fight or anything. After about 30 mins, he still couldn’t finish. At this point we were both sweaty and tired (lol getting old) and I was getting concerned. We decided to just stop and I went to take a shower alone. He asked to join me but I declined. The day before, he fell asleep waiting on me to put my daughter down (she needed extra support). In his defense, he did work long hours that day. But not yesterday.

Yesterday and the day before were my peaks. I am DEVASTATED. We had been bd every other day or every 2 days and of course my 2 peak days, he falls asleep one day and then can’t finish the next. I had finally gotten on board and was so ready to hopefully get pregnant this month. I didn’t know how ready I was because I am ANGRYYYY at him. I KNOW I shouldn’t be and I’m being selfish. But it fucking sucks and I just can’t shake it. I guess I’m just wondering 2 things:

1) has this ever happened to you before, where your man couldn’t ejaculate? This has only happened one other time in our relationship (6 years total) and he was super dehydrated that day and we figured it out. He wasn’t dehydrated yesterday nor did he work a long day. He was home on time.

2) honestly it was kinda emotionally damaging for me so how do I look past this and try to have sex again? I’ve lost attraction/willingness to BD because I’m afraid I’m doing something wrong or he just won’t finish again and we’ll never get pregnant. Please help.