How to kiss

I used to enjoy kissing my husband but then he said it bores him and doesn't know what is interesting about kissing for long which spoilt the fun for me a bit.

After that he emotionally cheated on me and lied about blocking contact after I forgave him only for hims to show me his phone and in that exact moment the contact anf photo of the girl pops up the day I gave birth.

From then he physically repulsed me. Up to now I hate kissing him. When my sex drive returned postpartum, I got some interest in being intimate but I still hate kissing.

It all feels wrong. I dont know if it has sth to do with the fact that I am nolonger in love, or if we are bad kissers.

First if am down, sorry tmi, I feel like too much of his saliva is coming into my mouth. I just keep swallowing. I wish to tell him to try to swallow some of his saliva but how can you say that? The kiss is way too wet. The moment his lips touch mine, it is so much fluid even if there is no tongue involved. When tongue is involved I feel like I swallow a lot that my stomach feels full from all the saliva.

Then the skin close to outlines of my lips is wet too. And I have to stop to wipe with my hands...

It disgusts me a bit. I never wipe when he is seeing.

Then the position of his head. It is straight. So that his nose is pressing directly on mine. I always try to tilt to make a better fit but he moves back. Elongating his mouth into a kiss.

It all ain't elegant, nor nice.

Which is shocking because he gave me my first best kiss. He wasn't my first kiss because I had kissed my ex bf then bf about 10 times before we broke up. Dont know if it is because I don't feel affection and love from him anymore if we are doing things wrong? I have kissed 2 guys all my life and only slept with my husband so I am not the most perfect in physical relationships so I need tips on what is going wrong. What can I do to improve? How do I talk about this without hurting his feelings? Currently where our relationship is, I dont think discussing what Aint right in bed can be taken well. Also I did that a lot and never got feedback about what I needed to do to improve so I felt it was one sided.