3rd methotrexate

I’m about to have my 3rd methotrexate injection, I’m feeling a bunch of emotions. I’m sad, anxious, devastated, & exhausted. To make it even worse they’re giving it to me on the labor & delivery floor of the hospital. Hearing the babies cry is getting to me. This was my first pregnancy & never did I think I would be having to go through this. With my 1st injection it only went down 7% & w/ my 2nd injection it was down 22% from 326 to 254. But this morning I got labs done & got the call later on that my levels went up to 279 & that I had to make the decision of getting a 3rd shot or surgery. I’m trying to avoid surgery as much as possible. But all of this is so tiring. I’m only 24 & never thought I’d have to go through this. I’m just praying & crossing my fingers this 3rd injection will work & all of this will be over soon 😞💔