Infertility, fear of babies not being there, heartbeat

I’m expecting twins after 6.5 years of infertility. I have this irrational fear that I’m not pregnant, though I know deep down everything is fine.

Well, I didn’t want to use the Doppler I had bought months back after I miscarried my first, but I’ve been thinking for a few days and I decided that I wanted to use it.

I heard one of the babies heart beats. That’s good enough for me! This is still so surreal and sometimes I think “this can’t be my life”.