He hurt me Update

I'm in a gay marriage with my husband and we are gonna be having a baby soon through a surrogate. I've been with him since I was 25(15 was a typo). I've had issues with him letting his friends destroy our house and him not cleaning up and just smoking weed with them. I got drunk and deep cleaned when he still hadn't cleaned up. Then he doesn't want people to think just because he's gay he's feminine so he acts extra "masculine" in front of his friends and disrespects me in front of them because he thinks it makes him look like a "manly gay" not a "feminine gay". I don't understand how being disrespectful to your partner makes you manly or feminine. But today he had his friends over. I made dinner and they ate everything up and left me nothing. I for real made myself a plate and he took it and gave it to his friend for seconds..... I was upset so I went to McDonald's and bought myself some food. I come back and he starts asking why I didn't get him anything. I said he already ate. He said he's still hungry and asked me to go back and get him some food and then started telling his friends to tell me what they want. I said I'm not going back. I started walking to the bedroom and he called me a bastard who wants him to starve. I told him to drive himself and he said he was at work all day and why can't I do something. He works part time and I work full time. He was at work for 3 hours today. Not all day. I walked away and he yells "Stop being disrespectful and listen to me when I'm talking to you!" And pushed me and I hit my head on the corner of our table. I was bleeding and went 5i the bathroom trying not to cry. He stayed with his friends and I got ready fro bed trying not to cry. When they left he came upstairs and cuddled me saying he was sorry and grabbed my dick trying to have sex with me! I said no and he said he said hee was sorry so why am I still on this. He then kicked me out the bedroom because I'm being an ass so I slept in the babies room....

I know a lot of you are saying not to bring a baby into this household. This is his first time getting aggressive with me. Me and my almost divorced over a year ago because he was being mean to me and letting his friends trash my house. I already have a son from a previous relationship and he knew I wanted more kids. And he wouldn't grow up. So I left and decided to just have another kid on my own with a surrogate. But he came back and apologized and changed for a while. The last 2 months he's been back to his old habits.

Update: So I've taken a lot of what was said to heart. As much as this broke my heart I packed up his things and left them outside with a note. I said u can no longer be married to him and said we can discuss custody of our baby with lawyers. He was banging on my door for an hour saying how ridiculous I'm being and then called me a horrible father to my son and then kicked my door saying he's the best thing that's ever happened to me and to enjoy my second divorce and then left..... I've been crying all day. The only thing that makes me feel better is organizing the babies room.

Thanks for everyone's support. And to the person who said they weren't judging yet said I'm not getting into heaven for being gay and quoted bible verses at me. You're preaching to the wrong choir. Proud Wiccan.

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