Family commenting about my weight

I need to vent

I’ve always been overweight but since i was 13 I’ve tried every diet, exercise in existence.

I’m 23 and 104kg. I’ve been recently diagnosed with PCOS and awaiting further appointments with gynae.

My mother and grandmother constantly comment about my weight and how “gorgeous” I’d be if I was thinner. I had acne when I was a teenager, that was their problem before this. I’ve had enough of it, contemplating suicide.

They even send me links to diet pills to lose weight faster. I train with a personal trainer twice a week and go to the gym 2-3 times a week. I eat healthy but the weight just does not come off.

I never feel good about myself, I don’t go out with friends or my partner. Whenever I eat ANYTHING good or bad, I feel this massive guilt of eating.

I don’t feel comfortable confronting them about this either.

Can someone please just show me some love and support as I’m really struggling rn